Hmm..Conundrum

I, yet again, find that when a girl likes me I end up not liking her. Then, once I realize that I do like her I have pushed her too far away and have screwed myself over.

This one though, I'm just going to be an adult about her and just say, "Oh well," and be a good friend and ask for nothing more. There are a lot more girls out there.

Sorry about being an ass to you after that party.

I feel as though I have been ignoring you.

Perhaps that is because I have been cheating on you; I have been writing in my journal I keep with me.
I've started it now that I'm going to college. A simple way to just write each day, almost every day and not worry about it.

It's better that way.
I'll attempt, no-I will write more often on here as well.
University tomorrow, dorm, pack...move..pain...agony...haha...sarcasm...facetious..
Salam Alaykum,
Jared

Today is a New Day

February 1st. My application to U of Iowa is supposed to be completed today..... Will it be?

I hope so. HAHA!

Otherwise I had a wonderful night with Tori last night? a few hours ago. We have decided to be exclusive. I'm doing something I normally don't, but I want to give it a chance and I like her. She's different. She's smart, funny, weird sometimes, goofy, sexy, attractive, fit, and just all around fun. I love that she works out. I don't know why, but I do.

Movies movies movies

I recently watched Taken, Gran Torino, and Slumdog Millionaire. All three of them are amazingly good. Spectacular in fact. Also, I watched Defiance and Valkyrie. While these aren't as good as the former three, if they had come out at another time I would be saying the same thing.

I next need to watch the Curious Case of Benjamin Button and The Wrestler. However, I have yet to do that.

I just figured I would let who ever reads this know. That those are five movies they shoudl DEFINITELY watch.

Cheers.

A Deck of Cards and a Year's Worth of Goals

So, in an effort to actually change myself for the better. Rather then make some unrealistic goal that I won't ever actually do, I decided to write as many goals or things I want to aspire to on a deck of cards. Anything and everything I could think of went down. Here are those goals.
Large Writing denotes a completed or past goal
Short Term-In no special order
Do 20 Pullups in a row.
300 jump ropes in a row(without making a mistake-thats the tricky part)
Kiss a girl not from my hometown.
Kiss a girl from my hometown. (haha diverse aren't I?)
Get a second job.
Have 1000k saved by march for UK
Do 15 pullups in a row.
Complete apllications to UK
Complete UWash Application by 10th of January(I completed it today.)
Weigh 155Lb.s (At 157Lbs. right now)
Finish all uni applications before deadline.(one down-Iowa and UK next)
Swim Four Laps Nonstop at Rec Center
6:30 Minute Mile
Hold Two Jobs Down
Kiss a girl who's first language is not English
Read Inferno by Dante

Long Term Goals- or goals that I feel will take a bit more time then Short Term
Kiss a girl not from U.S.A
Bench 200lbs. (180Lbs right now)
Pass Calculus AP Test
Score a goal in soccer(high school competitive)
Have a six pack(defined)
Learn Some French
Commit to Something Completely Outside of Myself
Start Varsity Soccer
Get a Second Tattoo
Swim Eigh Laps Nonstop At Rec
Graduate with a 3.25GPA or higher
Score three goals in soccer
Go to beach in summer at least twice a week(when in town)
Learn some Arabic
Go hiking at least four times
Complete Half of my goals before I turn 19(or all that are possible)
Go to Seattle
Go to Another Country
Go Rock Climbing or to Climb Iowa
Play Striker at least once in varsity
Run a 6:15 Mile
500 Jump ropes in a row(no mistakes)

Habit or Lifestyle Goals-I can't determine if I have completed these adequately until the end of the year.

Talk to at least three strangers when I am out and being social
Save $20 from any money I recieve
Swim once a week (failing so far)
1 date per month
Improve School Habits
One good deed per week.(Good so far.)
Change my lifestyle in one way(for positive)
Putt $100 every paycheck towards trip to UK
Improve Money Habits
Don't Smoke Weed
Try a ST or LTR
Date More
Talk to at least one girl every time im out
Be more fun
Eat Healthier
Talk to Dad once a week(so far doing good)

These are my goals for the the year...my lifestyle ones aren't one I expect myself to just suddenly do, but ones that I will work towards the whole year.

I said

That I would post my goals up today, but I have to wait till later tonight.

For some reason I just felt like writing right now.

I'm kind of swamped with school, but I don't even notice it; I probably will put it off until the last minute.

I have to work on my research paper. This is the most important. The other things I can wait till tomorrow or days after or in school to work on them. However, my research paper and my applications are what I must do before I do ANYTHING else.

So, here's to working out and then coming home and doing school work.

Just a Little Update

I finally finished the Walking Drum by Louis L'Amour. I don't know why it took me so long, I loved the book and couldn't put it down, but it took forever to finish.

Definitely a must read.

I wrote out 54 goals for myself for this year.
On a deck of cards.
As I complete one I will burn it and hopefully it has become a part of my life and not just something I did once.

A lot of the goals aren't ones that I can burn off until the next year. Such as lifestyle, habitual goals.

I'll post them all up tomorrow or as soon as possible.